Competitions were passing and I never got a chance to win them. I was getting so upset and I started to think "If i can't win even a single competition, is there any talent in me?" After questioning my talent, I took a break from writing and decided to never attend a competition. It was the stupidest thing to do.

Now I wake up to reality because all this happens in my head and it happens a lot. Sometimes, I don't even understand how I like a guy and I start a relationship with him and even date him for two years, but only in my head not in real life, and Mikhail hasn't even told me that he likes me yet o, imagine…